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Okay, everyone who knows me knows how much I love my skydaddy in heaven I really do, but some of the stuff he is having me go through just doesn't make any sense sometimes! I have spoiled brat tendencies for sure, so when skydaddy was making me go through it this week I threw a fit!!!!! I have been having some issues with my vehicle lately, and I had to change two tires in a matter of 4 days. My car is my baby, and with everything else going on in my life, I don't have time to worry about a failing car. She's not that old and I am not ready to part ways! So I had to let my skydaddy hear it, like come on dude! Here I am trying to be a faithful servant and follow your will and your way and you're going to keep letting all this stuff happen to me? You know what I got going on! So yeah, I threw a fit. He let me cry, he let me pout, he let me say what I needed to say and let it all out. And then he said… “watch this.”
I realized my woes weren’t that bad; I was able to get my car fixed, and the tire shop was super friendly and very helpful to the damsel in distress. Certain things I have been praying for suddenly began aligning well. I got a chance to take a break and have a day catered just to me and all the things I love to do. All the trouble I went through at the beginning of the week was nothing compared to the fun and blessings I've had in the last few days of the week. I had to really put into perspective that I am not going to understand all the plans skydaddy has for me, but as long as I continue to be faithful and humble he will continue to bless me. I cannot fail or shut down in the face of adversity, but I have to keep going. Life is always going to life, and things are always going to happen beyond our control, but when you know who you're doing it for, and who is in control, it's easier to take a step back.
So yes, if you need to throw a pity party, cry it out, and don't hold back those emotions because they'll only eat you up inside. Take a break. But then, get up and keep going. No, being a believer in Christ and following our heavenly sky daddy isn't for the weak, but it is so worth it! The peace. The love. The blessings. It's taking me a while to get used to being the passenger princess and letting skydaddy do the navigating but it hurts a lot less when I stop being stubborn and allow him to lead the way. So this time around, I'm choosing to see the good in all things “bad” because things are happening FOR me, not TO me. It’s all a part of the journey and I should enjoy the ride. Sit back, shuffle threw the playlist, jam good vibes, and let my skydaddy do the navigating.
This scripture always stays with me: Psalm 23: The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me by the still waters, he restores my soul, he leads me to the path of righteousness, and yeah though I may walk through the dark valleys of the shadows of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me. Your rod and your staff comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil. My cup overflows, surely your goodness and love will follow me all my days and will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.